September 2009
3 posts
Both were not in plans of each other. Anyway, it was amazing. However, they tear apart, such a shame. A waste of hearts, sensations, loves and illusions. But look, she still dreams about him and he thinks of her…
Starstrukk
You know that type of shit just don’t work on me,whistling then trying to flirt with me. Don’t take it personally ‘cause we were never in love.
It doesn’t really matter who you say you are, sing it out the window of your car and find another girl across the bar ‘cause L-O-V-E is not what this was.
Oh, Katy, I love you.
Fresh Air
Seriously, some things happen e, bang, change your mind. Change your air.
Maybe all you have to do to change your smal world is change your places, see new faces and breathe new air. Brand new air. Good and brand new air.
Something I learned about these days is that if you feel good, then everything starts getting good, and your world starts floating. It tastes so good.
I just need to do this...
August 2009
5 posts
Some songs just fit me, it’s so funny, man.
All we ever did was move around. I was always the new kid, never the cool kid but all I ever wanted was fall in love just to be in love. But my heart was racing, my mind was searching.
You’ve got your whole life to do these things. But my legs were shaking, my hands were searching for her in the backseat of my car.
I just lost it. And I...
Some songs just fit me, it’s so funny, man.
All we ever did was move around. I was always the new kid, never the cool kid but all I ever wanted was fall in love just to be in love. But my heart was racing, my mind was searching.
You’ve got your whole life to do these things. But my legs were shaking, my hands were searching for her in the backseat of my car.
I just lost it. And I...
Reminds me of someone.
Hey, love, your face is full of lies. Be careful what you ask, be catious how you act.
You’re tired, tired of the dark. You’re covered with dust.
How can you fall if you would like that, dear? Don’t mind, it’s a common reaction when you tell me everything’s alright, but you don’t mind. How can feel when you’re wounded like that, dear? Don’t mind,...
What a great day
This is the worst birthday ever. When the day just started, I thought it would be everything okay but, God, I was such a fool. I am alone all day. Ironicly, the only one who remind me was someone that I know about two weeks. And yeah, he’ll be far now. Like I planned. We both I guess.
However, that’s it. I’m alone, I’m sad, I feel totally unimportant. If I were dead any of...
Flores do Mal
In Portuguese today.
A mesma mão que acaricia fere e sai furtiva
Faz do amor uma história triste
O bem que você me fez nunca foi real
Da semente mais rica nasceram flores do mal.
July 2009
5 posts
There's No Other Way.
I’m not jealous and not even surprised. At all.
But, c’mon, it’s a weird situation, and a bad sensation, when you see how erased you were and how is easy to find an substitute for what would be my place.
It’s not a surprise. I just knew it would happen someday, and that this day wasn’t far. I got it when I see there was a new me, but I was quiet.
It’s...
Fuck forever.
I’m just tired of being so fool. I’m alone, like I ever was. Any change is only an illusion, and I must stop believing in it.
You're so great.
And I feel alive in the night and in the day, And I feel alive the sky’s just mild and grey
And I feel alive when you tell me that’s okay ‘cause you’re so great and I love you.
I really wish someone make a song like this to me someday.
I've got nothing to prove, I've got nothing to...
Listening to Another Cynthia, this girl here is relaxed. I had some anger inside of me, but it’s far away now.
I don’t like to put in this way, but yeah, don’t punish me for something I haven’t done, don’t say that told something I didn’t.
And that’s it.
Why say forever and never if we’re so inconstant? We can’t see future, we can’t talk about constant things.
We’re so cute when we’re emotianally happy… Things we say could stay forever, but it’s so pretty funny.
Yeah, we’re walking contradiction.
June 2009
4 posts
Great Blind Melon
I just want someone to say me “I’ll always be there when you wake”, yeah.
You know, I’d like to keep tears dry today, so stay with me and I’ll have it made.
It’s not sane.
You know I make you wanna scream.
Boys, boys, boys, you are so lame. When you start to play it cool, maybe I’ll be here.
Maybe it’s too late.
Hit me.
Cold Desert
I’m on the corner waiting for a light to come on, that’s when I know that you’re alone.
It’s cold in the desert, water never sees the ground. Special spoken without a sound.
You told me you loved me, that I’d never die alone. Hand over your heart, let’s go home.
Everyone noticed, everyone has seen the signs, I’ve always been known to cross lines.
I...
I miss.
I miss being that little girl. I miss being that cute, shy girl. I miss some conversations that I could say “No, you can speak that”.
Sometimes I am scared of becoming a woman. I’m still that girl, but no one can see it. Maybe it’s my fault, but I’m that shy girl. And sometimes I miss all that care people had to say some things to me.
I guess I’d like to be a...
May 2009
3 posts
Shiu
For sure something went wrong. Seems like I have the power to make my days upside down. I won’t try to fight my confusing thoughts right now, I’ll just relax.
Bye.
You are a sell out.
There’s a lot of great news going on this week. After A LOT of bad things, I’m fine.
Weird, but fine.
The Good, The Bad And The Queen.
Centuries and centuries later, I’m back.
Has been such a funny while since I stopped writing. Relantionships in school became VERY difficult, some of my friends are a little weird, boys taking my pacience away… A lot of things.
Too mysterious boys must know that games are cool, but only if it doesn’t last too much. Maybe girls are not too pacient for you.
Too mysterious boys,...
April 2009
2 posts
Dear God.
Dear God, you give me things and push them away like a flashlight. The only thing I want is let everything okay, is to know about how I love, if they’re alright. Don’t sacare me like that, please.
Amen.
Dear God, the only thing I ask of you is to hold her him when I’m not around, when I’m much too far away.
Time To Pretend
I’m feeling rough, I’m feeling raw, I’m in the prime of my life. Let’s make some music, make some money, find some models for wives.
I’ll move to Paris, shoot some heroin and fuck with the stars.
(…)This is our decision to live fast and die young, we’ve got the vision, now let’s have some fun. Yeah, it’s overwhelming, but what else can we do?...
March 2009
9 posts
Dance In The Rain.
Dancing in the rain, I washed my thoughts, cleaned my soul more than I just did and now I’m a superwoman (:
Effy or Chris?
I had written a text about hide feelings and all the stuf and act in silence. But what is better, this or acting friendly, make everyone laughs?
Chris is my idol, and he’s pretty happy. Effy is a quiet but clever girl.
I’m exactly half of everyone.
Watch Skins.
Change.
Do you feel something changing?
Man, I do. Actually, I guess I’m changing. I wanted new ways, so I made some. Not so dependent, not so addicted and a little bit more open minded.
Cheers.
Do you feel the same anyway? Now you’ve come.
You make me feel so alive.
Like the brightest star, you shine through. I’ve got in purpose again.
Happy days, dude (:
This is Peter.
Oh, man, Peter Doherty was a great surprise. I thought he was a stupid guy and that I would hate him, but I loved his ways. He seems to be cool.
Welcome (:
Fuck forever, if you don’t mind.
Something to somebody else.
Man, bad things happen everyday. After they happen, you get up and go ahead. Easy (:
I don’t have to get critics about things that I don’t live anymore. I tried to make things easier and I was planning things with all my loving. I don’t have to get critics AT ALL.
Since I tried and it didn’t work, I know I gave my all and cannot do anything now. If someone has something...
Old Times Never Come Back.
I got a lesson yesterday. When any kind of relationship something breaks, it’s never going to be the same again. Why? Because something is broken. Simple.
It’s not redundant, it’s logical. If everything was going well and something hard, important got lost, this thing that is missing will never be found. And since you can never find it anymore, you will not have it, right?...
Every Single Day;
‘Since you’ve gone I’ve been lost without a trace, I dream at night and I can only see your face. I look around but it’s you I can’t replace, I feel cold and I long for your embrace (…) Baby, baby, please’
Every Breath You Take - The Police
Wait there.
February 2009
8 posts
And She Won't Give It Up;
I don’t even know how to write now. Something here brings me a bad sensation.Makes me remember about things that I didn’t want to, that I couldn’t do.
However, life keeps on going and I have to follow her. So, I’m still here, collecting strengh.
Days are passing by and I’m still here, waiting for my chance - my last chance.
The past few days I was high, dancing...
The Smart Ones.
Man, I learned that, even if you are afraid to face the truth, you have to do it.
Sometimes being yourself can’t help, nothing can help. Nobody lives completely alone.
Nobody,not even you. You must understand that, in this world, you have to be smart to live, only this. Feelings are missing, and that’s the point: if don’t have feelings, if need to love, you are smart....
Be stupid.
Oh yeah, even when you try to help, you’re never gonna make it. You are the trouble.
Don’t try to cheer someone up. Let it die, I guess they wanna.
Any questions?
Brand new;
Oh yeah, life is crazy again. School, trying to be in a college, job, books, music, everything crazy again. Holy shit!
You know, I like it. Last year in school, last year in a lot of things. I’ll miss everything in future, I know that.
I feel it’s a new crazy year starting. Let it come, mothafucka.
Ladies Night
You know what? Anything like being predictable (:
Anything like being the same as everybody, or every girl. Anything like being stupid like everyone you know, or everybody knows.
Anything like crying because of these stupid things. You did, Mari, congrats!
I’m just tired.
And so it is, just like you said it would be.
Stuck on this thing of stranger, it’s so weird how you become a stranger in minutes. In a optimist point of view,days, but not real.
Someday you’ll come at a big point : love is a thing that’s inside of you. But only you. Don’t expect big feelings, even from someone you’re sure would love you.
Nobody loves. Love’s not normal, regular thing. Love’s a...
Are we human?
Are we human or are we dancers? My sign is vital, my hands are cold; And I’m on my knees looking for the answer.
Yeah, I guess we’re only dancers. It’s kinda almost impossible have feelings in this planet. If you show yours, you’re the stranger.
Hello, stranger.
January 2009
7 posts
Send my love a letterbomb and visit me in hell.
Man, dreams come true? I wanted all my dreams in reality, but I think they love to run away from me. Why?
My dreams are crazy, but I belive so much in them. My life plans are just dreams. They have to become true.
I’m in a lot of thoughts. They are really pessimists, and they’re all about me. They’re kinda “fuck it, I’ll live my life with no feelings and...
Still Away.
I’m still far from home, but I missed it, missed to write something. You know, I`m writing almost everyday in my notebook, but you know, it`s my website.
Oh fuck, I`m so sleepy that I don’t even know what I`m saying or write, nevermind.
I miss my home, but not so much that I should. I miss my parents and some friends. That’s all.
My little cousin is the sweetest kid I’ve...
Trippin'
Yeah ,ma’am, I’m gonna travel this weekend. Three weeks away don’t cry for me Argentina. If any of you forget about me, I kill everybody wtf
I don’t have too much to say about this, only that I’ll travel (:
You know, I love to travel, to meet people and this kinda stuff. I promise I’ll write everyday in my notebook and I’ll write here when I arrive...
Anything (:
C’mon, someday you have to see the truth. You see everything you do is incomplete, insufficient.
You wanna make someone laugh - you can’t. You wanna make somebody happy -you can’t again. Then you see you suck. And since you realize you are unhappy and superboring. Great.
It’s hard to see you are not who you want to be. You wanna be the happy, the excited, the crazy one...
Shine On;
Man, I needed to write something since someday of last week, but I don’t remember what I wanted to write. I’m okay (:
There’s a song that keeps playing in my mind since I knew it. It says
About your hair, you needn’t care, you look beautiful all the time.
Shine, shine, shine on, yes; Won’t you shine, shine on?
It’s not something so special, but I feel so...
Kiss Me
And every little thing today is bringing me to a word that makes me crazy, especially now: K-I-S-S.
I woke up and the radio was playing a song called Kiss Me. Okay, I got up, walked through my room singing this song and… Kiss Me was in my mind all day.
In the night I was watching TV when my ex-boyfriend called me to say anything. Of course he reminds me kiss -kisses, actually.
Later, I...
“How can a bad day become a great day? Meeting new people ;}”
The Girl's A Straight Up Hustler
There was never a song with so much meaning as this song now.
“Lipstick has a way of leaving more than just a mark on my sheets
Coloring my senses cherry red at least for this week
(…)I’m sick and tired of writing songs about you, this is it - this is the end.
Take off your make up and put down the camera, choke on the drama that makes me want to
Tear up the pictures and...
December 2008
4 posts
Awsome Day
Man, today was such a great day! Spending six hours only talking about life to a friend that you didn’t see for at least four months is wonderful!
Me and Isaah talked about everything we need to, we were like kids kidding with the chocolate, we gave each other some hugs… Man, E V E R Y T H I N G that I need in this world is friends like you. Thank you, darling!
I will alwas be by...
Long Time
Some days you only have nothing to do. You wake up, brush your teeth, brush your teeth again and again (I do that, okay), lay on your sofa and think. Think, think and think again. When you look to the clock, you get that you’re up for a couple of hours doing… anything (:
Then you are not hungry at all, so you don’t have lunch (when you’re hungry you eat,right?). You sit...
Sneezing Night
Man, yesterday night was something…hm,different. C’mon, it’s not every single day that you go to your friend’s house to learn talk about sex important things in your life. What? Hm, forget it.
Ok, my girls was able to see “The Perfect Man”, with Hillary Duff. Man, this girl drives me completely bored. Let’s see the movie. Man, since last week I HATE this...